Keep going.

Keep going. It's making you stronger.

Sometimes I just want someone to talk to.
Not to receive advice.
Not to be judged.
Just to be heard and listened to.

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"Just because we're not friends anymore doesn't mean you didn't change me. I owe a lot of the current me to you."

"We would be perfect together. And not just perfect like you see in the movies. Not the perfect that isn't perfect six and a half years from now. It's the perfect because you're my best friend and you've been my best friend for longer than most people. We've been through a lot and I don't pretend around you. There's no pretending at all. If we were to date, we would be happy."
"Stop being a dirty little slut and stop being that fake little B that I want to punch. You turned my best friend into your little minion. I'ma punch you right now. Okay? Okay."
"Kiss me on the mouth. Right now."

This list could go on, really.

I have an awful habit- problem more than habit- of not being able to say what I think. Maybe it's from years of getting shot down when I did. I don't know. Motivation doesn't matter in this case. Either way, I can't say what I think so I write it down in my little notebook that also happens to be purple. Lots of letters to lots of people. Lots of letters that will never be sent.

For today, just listen.

Don’t think or judge, just listen.
-Sarah Dessen

Reading is one form of escape. Running for your life is another.
-Lemony Snicket

I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.
-Edgar Allan Poe

Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these, ‘It might have been.
-John Greenleaf Whittier

Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else’s opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.
-Oscar Wilde

For today.

Education is what remains after one has forgotten what one has learned in school.
-Albert Einstein

You cannot find peace by avoiding life.
-Virginia Woolf

Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one’s definition of your life; define yourself.
-Robert Frost

I wish these entries didn't need titles.

Today I reached page 100 of my Word document journal. It's a funny thing when a year ago I wrote the sameish thing as I wrote today. I've changed so much but I'm still in the same place.

Slow down.

We've got time left to be lazy.
It was love at second sight.
I'll set the table, you can make the fire.

One day I'm going to have a really neat library

Giggle on the inside

Stay Young, Go Dancing

Let us read, and let us dance; these two amusements will never do any harm to the world.
-Voltaire

3, 2, 1

3:
Whatever you are, be a good one.
-Abraham Lincoln


We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be.
-Kurt Vonnegut

The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.
-Gloria Steinem

 2:

Aaaand one book that I strongly recommend:

Craving..

Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.
-Sylvia Plath

Live to the point of tears.
-Albert Camus

You can only be young once. But you can always be immature.
-Dave Barry

The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.
-Chuck Palahniuk

Drink some tea.

And watercolor.

Note to self

Try:

 People that aren't me know me a lot better than I do.

Books are for people who wish they were somewhere else.
-Mark Twain

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.
-Chuck Palahniuk

One day I will find the right words, and they will be simple.
-Jack Kerouac

Rainy days.

What's better than hot tea on a rainy day?

.

I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I’m awake, you know?
-Ernest Hemingway

The cure for boredom is curiosity.There is no cure for curiosity.
-Dorothy Parker

Two people in love, alone, isolated from the world, that’s beautiful.
-Milan Kundera

Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future.
-Oscar Wilde

I found a new best friend.

Sometimes God knows exactly what I need. He knew that I needed a best friend to love me just as much as I love her. She understands me always and when she doesn't, she figures out how. She thinks that I'm so amazing and she would never try to change me. She is just cutest, sweetest, most wonderful girl ever. We've known each other for a month but we know everything about our lives and the greatest thing is that she doesn't judge me for my past. Okay. It's good to be loved.